Weakness

This is a master list of the all the trouble spots I have and how hopefully I overcome them. Trial and error!

1.) Feeling like I need to eat out
- My first plan of attack for this is to pack a small snack in my purse. .a fiberOne bar, small bag of almonds, or some jerky (i know it's chalked full of sodium, but at least it's not deepfried!)


2.) Feeling as if I need special food for special events
- My first plan of attack for this is to make a favorite healthy recipe. The next special event that comes my way I am going to Baked Buffalo Chicken

Bribery

For some reason, all the reasons I have just don't seem enough to motivate me when it comes down to 'to eat or not to eat' and 'to exercise or not to exercise'. I think it's mostly because all of my 'reasons' will be recognized in the long term. So here are some of my rewards that I am going to shoot for. I'll be adding as I think of them and reorganizing and assigning goals to them as I go.

I'm trying to think of small things that will be an outward sign that I am taking care of myself as well as activites that I enjoy.

5 lbs - Nailpolish

8 lbs - 3 Mafia Members-Facebook

11 lbs - book 'Sweet by and by'

15 lbs - Earrings

18 lbs - new fluffy pillow

25 lbs - Date night (including popcorn)

Reasons to Lose

1. My health
2. To be the best example for kids
3. To life the longest healthiest life with my husband
4. To shop anywhere and everywhere
5. To not become diabetic

Pinpointing my weaknesses

So I had this great momentum when I woke up this morning. By lunch, it was weakening and by dinner it was gone.

I wake up and eat a nice low cal/low fat/low carb breakfast.
I drive around here and there and am thinking Arby's sounds good. But nothing fried. No nothing fried. Well maybe some cheesesticks. Absolutely not. Fat fat fat. A sandwhich will fill me up. But maybe not so maybe I need some fries. .a small fry.
Dinner . .I'll still eat spaghetti for dinner and be able to hit my calorie range if I just keep it small. But you know it is a big TV night for us . . and the Biggest Loser starts on Monday. .and I can eat bad now without tons of guilt. .so maybe buffalo chicken pizza from our favorite pizza place.

And here I seat. Full of greasy food.
Do I need to add I didn't exercise?

So my weaknesses. . .

1. When I leave the house, I feel I have to eat somewhere
2. When I feel lazy, I order out and I order out bad
3. I assign 'special food' to special occassions/events

Now my goal is to work on those weaknesses

French Fries and Soda

Surprise Surprise . . .my office wasn't able to get the Biggest Loser organized in time to start it this week. My initial reaction was 'Wooohooo! Another weeking of eating whatever I want!", but it only lasted a second.

I am 100% fed up with this body. I want it to be in shape and healthy. So Biggest Loser competition or not, I am starting.

Yesterday was a so-so day. Today I'm doing better. I resisted french fries and soda. . .but it was a battle. I just kept thinking about how those fries have so little to offer my body. How greasy they feel in my fingers and that grease creeping it's way onto my already ample body.

The soda was easier. It's so bad for me in so many ways, I could easily replace it with a nice glass of water.

I even walked a mile on the treadmill. It wasnt a fast mile, but it was a mile more than I walk on an average day. Baby steps.

I just keep saying . .every decision counts. .every positive decision I make regarding exercise and food is a few less calories ate or a few more calories burned and they all add up.

Yesterday Today Tomorrow

My first post. . hopefully the first of many. . .

Tomorrow is a big day so I'm going to make this short. Even though no one can possibly be reading this, I just wanted to get something down.

We just returned from our family vacation to the outerbanks and the pictures are pouring in. Depressing but motivating.

Tomorrow, is the first day of a Biggest Loser-esqe competition at work.

What good timing.

I am starting to realize that weight loss must truly be a re-training of my mind. To say that I am an overthinker is an understatement. I just need to start rethinking food and exercise. All these mental ideas I have about food and exercise need to be reformed for me to lose weight and keep it off.

I'm done looking for a one-size-fit-all diet. Because as one chubby girl knows, one-size-fits-all almost always doesn't fit me.

I'm really looking forward to keeping this daily note to myself. .hopefully gain some supporting readers and encourage them in return. Also to be able to look back on this when I need encouragement.

I feel like Doogie Howser. . .